I was cursed by my infertile mind,
Or was it my impulsiveness or my fear or my wine?
Those are lines from my poem “Fertility” in my new book of poetry Jaundiced View. Infertility is a painful state of being women sufferer around the world. The proverb that says, “these things are never satisfied…a barren womb (Proverbs 30:15-16),” magnifies the anguish, frustration and shame, a few of the tormenting emotions surrounding barrenness. I am sure most women don’t want to be barren. A woman wants her choice to have a baby when she wants to. Can you imagine not being able to get pregnant and have a baby when you really want a child?
I thank God that I have never been in that situation, and I pray that you and me will always be fruitful in our womb. In fact, God promises, “blessed is the fruit of your womb” to those who obey his commandments (Deuteronomy 28:1-4), you will not miscarry (Exodus 23:26), nor be infertile (Deuteronomy 7:14). I can trust God above all to do what He says He will do just as long as I do my part, which is to OBEY.
There seems to be much discontent around pregnancy and childbearing. On the one hand, you have the barren womb that’s never satisfied, and on the other hand, you have unwanted pregnancies. It’s seems like we should be able to get these two groups of ladies together and solve all their problems. Right?
In some instances, it does happen that way where mature women who desire motherhood and teens who don’t desire a baby come together through the adoption process. Adoption is beautiful when you think about it. It’s an intricate preparation for the gift of a lifetime, a child. Even the Almighty participates in and is a proponent of adoption. God says we are adopted into the family of God when we believe in Jesus Christ (Ephesians 1:5).
I understand the implications of being loved by someone who specifically chose me to be His daughter. It’s a beautiful feeling of truly being accepted in the beloved. Won’t you become part of this beloved community? Believe in the Messiah who washes away your every stain (Psalm 51:2), heals your pain (Psalm 147:3), and makes you fertile again (Psalm 113:9).
“Love will make me fertile once again,” (Fertility, Jaundiced View).
Love healing hearts,