“For in many things we offend all. If any man offend not in word, the same is a perfect man, and able also to bridle the whole body” (James 3:2).
I would love to be perfect! If only if I could tame my tongue I would be perfect. I used to be a Perfectionist. Everything in my life had to be perfect outside. What I mean by outside is at school, away from my home. See, I had to create a sense of safety in my life because my home life was anything but perfect.
I literally laid out my life in perfection. I became perfect. I made straight A’s. I had a decent social life. I was not any trouble for my parents. My life was perfect, or so it seemed…
Actually, I was miserable inside. I had so much pain inside of me. My perfection plan paid off as far as keeping everyone in my life far enough away from my actual soul so that I could keep pretending to be someone I am not.
“Even so the tongue is a little member, and boasts great things. Behold, how great a matter a little fire kindles!” (James 3:5).
I was so proud! I could not bare anyone to think that I was less than perfect, no, not one. Not until, the walls came tumbling down over me. I even wrote a song about my emotional breakdown.
What I am saying is that not telling those you love in life the truth about yourself is WRONG! Not only are you lying to yourself, but also to those closest to you, who really are not close at all. As it turns out, they don’t even know you. Your pretend facade has been successful in masquerading your alter ego.
“So do not be afraid of them, for there is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known” (Matthew 10:26).
So what will you do now that your walls are tumbling down? Everyone has a breaking point. It is impossible to keep a lie hidden forever.
Love healing hearts,